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Elara wrote for an hour. Aldric stood by the door and watched her write and she did not look up and she did not speak and the only sound was the scratch of the pen and the fire and the city outside. When she finished she had three letters. She sealed them with wax from a candle and pressed Lady Thorne's seal into them because she had no seal of her own.

She gave the letters to Lady Thorne with instructions. One to Lord Thorne in the lower city. One to Renard. One to a name Aldric did not recognize. A merchant in the port district. Lady Thorne took them and left without questions and the house was quiet.

Elara turned to Aldric. She had washed the blood from her face and hands but the dress still bore the stains. She did not change it. She wore the blood the way she had worn his blood in the hall. As a mark. As a fact.

"Sit," she said.

He sat at the table across from her. She looked at him and her eyes were clear in a way they had not been before. Not the controlled clarity of the mask. A different clarity. The clarity of a woman who had been through something that burned away everything except what was essential.

"My brother made a mistake," she said. "He put me in the tower to break me. He believed that isolation and silence would take me apart. He was correct. They did take me apart. But he did not understand what would happen when I put myself back together."

"You are different."

"I am clearer. There is a difference." She folded her hands on the table. "Before the tower I was playing a game. Court. Politics. Masks. I was managing my brother the way I managed everything. Carefully. Slowly. From behind walls. The tower took the walls away. All of them. And now I see the game differently. I do not want to manage my brother. I want to remove him."

"Remove."

"Remove. He is the threat. Not the court. Not the politics. Him. While he lives I am in danger. While he lives you are in danger. The solution is not to play the game better. The solution is to end the game."

Aldric looked at her. She was calm. She was speaking of killing a king the way she had spoken of grain shipments and patrol schedules. Without heat. Without hesitation. As though the decision had been made long ago and the tower had merely removed the last reason to delay it.

"How."

"Renard has access to the King's private chambers. Renard has been feeding me information for weeks because he is fond of me. But fondness is not loyalty. Renard will do what serves Renard. Right now what serves Renard is me. Because I am alive and I am free and my brother does not know that either of those things is true."

"You are using him."

"I am using everything. The way I always have." She paused. "But differently now. Before the tower I used things carefully. Calculatedly. I measured the cost and the benefit and I moved only when the mathematics favored me. Now I am going to move without measuring. Because the mathematics of survival are simple. He dies or I die. There is no middle ground."

"There is always middle ground."

"Not with Aldous. Not anymore. He put me in that tower. He left me in the dark. He used my own methods against me and he did it with a smile and a sermon about what is decent. He called me sick. He called you simple. He looked at the scars on your body and he was disgusted not because of what I did but because of what it meant about me. About what I am."

Her hands tightened on the table.

"He is not wrong about what I am. But he is wrong about what that means. It does not mean I am broken. It does not mean I need to be fixed. It means I am something he cannot control and that frightens him and what frightens him must be removed."

Aldric listened to her and he heard the words and the words were logical and the logic was sound but underneath the logic was something that was not logic. It was the thing the tower had let out. The thing she had told him about. The thing that was not going back in.

"What do you need from me," he said.

"I need you to be what you are. My sword. My shield. My hand when the hand is needed. I need you to stand where I tell you to stand and do what I tell you to do and I need you to do it without question because there is no time for questions and there is no margin for doubt."

"I have never questioned you."

"I know. That is why you are here. That is why you came for me. That is why you deserted your post and rode three hundred miles and crawled through a hole in a wall and found me in the dark. Because you do not question. Because you are mine."

She stood. She came around the table and she stood in front of him and she put her hand on his head. On his hair. Not his chest. Not the scars. His head. The gesture was not sexual. It was not cruel. It was the gesture of a person touching something that belongs to them. A confirmation of ownership.

"Renard will come tomorrow night," she said. "He will come here. I will meet with him and I will tell him what I need and he will do it because he has no choice. Because if he does not do it I will tell my brother about his visits to my chamber and the information he passed to me and he will die alongside me."

"You are threatening him."

"I am managing him. The way I manage everything." She removed her hand. "Tomorrow you will rest. You will eat. You will let your wounds close enough that you can fight. Because when this is done there will be fighting and I need you able."

"My lady."

"Do not call me that. Not anymore. Not when we are alone. That title belongs to the woman before the tower. I am not her."

"Elara."

She looked at him and something moved behind her eyes. Something that was not the cold clarity and not the hunger and not the love. Something that was all of those things compressed into a single point. Dense and hot and invisible.

"Go to your room," she said. "Sleep. Tomorrow the work begins."

He went upstairs. The room he had used before was still there. Small. Clean. A bed and a window and a lock. He lay on the bed and the wounds on his body throbbed and the cuts she had made that night were still open and the blood had soaked through his shirt and dried and the shirt was stiff with it.

He pressed his fingers to the new cuts. The ones from tonight. They were ragged. Not clean. Not the careful lines of before. She had cut him the way a starving person eats. Without art. Without control. And the cuts would scar and the scars would be different from the others. Uglier. Messier. The marks of a woman who had lost the precision that had made her what she was.

He traced them and he thought about what she had said. I am going to need things from you that I have not needed before. Worse things. Darker things. He did not know what that meant. He had already given her his blood and his pain and his dignity and his tears. He had stood outside doors and listened. He had let her cut him and bite him and use him. What was worse than that.

He did not know. But he had said yes. And the yes was a door that closed behind him.

He slept. Not well. Not long. But he slept because she had told him to and his body obeyed her even when his mind could not. He slept and he dreamed of the tower and of her face in the dark and of the sound she had made when she cut him and the sound was not the same as before. It was hungrier. Emptier. A sound that ate and was not filled.

He woke before dawn and the dreams stayed with him and the cuts throbbed and the city was waking outside and somewhere in it Elara was planning the death of a king and he was the instrument she would use and the instrument did not get to question the hand that wielded it.